Sometimes I get so fiercely attached to things I want to make happen that I fall completely out of balance. I network, create, build, write, and then a few weeks later, I realize I’m burned out. As a yoga teacher, coach, and lover of the good life, I used to think that balance was the key to survival. That somehow we always had to rest on the fine line between intensity and ease. And we do. We really do. But I think the reality is that this balance comes at a large scale level.

If we really want to pursue what we love, we have to fall into periods of imbalance. Of full on, work hard, dig in, even sometimes sleep less, sort of commitment. And then, when we’re burned out, we need to balance out by taking a pause. I’m recognizing that I’ve been going hard. So hard that I haven’t even had time to update this blog. So now it’s time for a pause. A few days off to recover. Luckily we have a trip on tap to snorkel with some sea turtles next week.

Take a moment. Look at where you are between ease and intensity. Do you need a rest? Or do you need to push a little harder to create what you’re longing for? 

Sometimes I get so fiercely attached to things I want to make happen that I fall completely out of balance. I network, create, build, write, and then a few weeks later, I realize I’m burned out. As a yoga teacher and lover of the good life, I used to think that balance was the key to survival. That somehow we always had to rest on the fine line between intensity and ease. And we do. We really do. But I think the reality is that this balance comes at a large scale level. If we really want to pursue what we love, we have to fall into periods of imbalance. Of full on, work hard, dig in, even sometimes sleep less, sort of commitment. And then, when we’re burned out, we need to balance out by taking a pause. I’m recognizing that I’ve been going hard. So hard that I haven’t even had time to update this blog. So now it’s time for a pause. A few days off to recover. Take a moment. Look at where you are between ease and intensity. Do you need a rest? Or do you need to push a little harder to create what you’re longing for? 

uganda bound! step one- a mini plane of 10 back across mada talking global politics and life en francais with the one flight attendant.

Sometimes dreams unfold in the simplicity of life. I’m here puffing my own rice for homemade protein bars, grinding oats for honey oat flour bread that’ll be baking all afternoon, and chopping coconut to dash on top of both. All of this to make some plane food for a 12 hour journey to Uganda tomorrow. I’ve not only fallen in love with not being able to run to the grocery store to grab anything I want, but also with the way I’m seeing the simple details of my life reflect a great big dream I hold onto.

I have a “one day” dream of living on land, having an urban farm of sorts, and making most of my own stuff from scratch (flours, honey, tinctures, herbs, veggies). Here in Madagascar today I’m doing a little warm up for that by making all these treats without easy access to gluten free flours and bars. How can you start moving towards your big dreams by bringing what your dreamy day-to-day might look like into your here and now?

One final paragraph of advice: do not burn yourselves out. Be as I am - a reluctant enthusiast….a part-time crusader, a half-hearted fanatic. Save the other half of yourselves and your lives for pleasure and adventure. It is not enough to fight for the land; it is even more important to enjoy it. While you can. While it’s still here. So get out there and hunt and fish and mess around with your friends, ramble out yonder and explore the forests, climb the mountains, bag the peaks, run the rivers, breathe deep of that yet sweet and lucid air, sit quietly for a while and contemplate the precious stillness, the lovely, mysterious, and awesome space. Enjoy yourselves, keep your brain in your head and your head firmly attached to the body, the body active and alive, and I promise you this much; I promise you this one sweet victory over our enemies, over those desk-bound men and women with their hearts in a safe deposit box, and their eyes hypnotized by desk calculators. I promise you this; You will outlive the bastards.
when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

Refuse to fall down
If you cannot refuse to fall down,
refuse to stay down.
If you cannot refuse to stay down,
lift your heart toward heaven,
and like a hungry beggar,
ask that it be filled.
You may be pushed down.
You may be kept from rising.
But no one can keep you from lifting your heart
toward heaven
only you.
It is in the middle of misery
that so much becomes clear.
The one who says nothing good
came of this,
is not yet listening.
― Clarissa Pinkola Estés

I’m now spanning two tumblrs round here. Need to get back at this one! In the meantime, you can check out notes on life in Madagascar at: thewonderofawe.tumblr.com. <3!

I have learned that a woman can be a fighter, a freedom fighter, a political activist, and that she can fall in love and be loved. She can be married, have children, be a mother. Revolution must mean life also; every aspect of life.

love is more thicker than forget
more thinner than recall
more seldom than a wave
is wet more frequent than to fail

it is most mad and moonly
and less it shall unbe
than all the sea which only
is deeper than the sea

love is less always than to win
less never than alive
less bigger than the least begin
less littler than forgive

it is most sane and sunly
and more it cannot die
than all the sky
which only is higher than the sky

-e.e. cummings